Yep! I manage to appy leave =) Lucky I can apply, I don't think anyone will know or say unless Lay Lian says it out. I trust her, I think she know that it is my birthday. I don't want anybody to know and I don't want people to know because I know that people remember it only for awhile but after days, months and years, people will not remember and then I will feel rejected and sad. Maybe because I felt in this way all the while, therefore I am protecting myself now.
Honestly, if I were to quit. I would go quietly. Because nobody will remember me and then I belong to a world of my own. I arrive quietly, therefore I hope to go quietly =)
Kinda negative but much better then before... >.<