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Friday, April 30, 2004

Hehe.. Just came back from an interview. The feeling is kinda wierd and I learnt alot from this interview. But sometimes I cannot judge a person by it's cover also, right? Because this interviewer is very friendly and talk to me more like a friend rather then an interviewer. He taught me extra stuff on what else to prepare for my interview. I think he taught me that is because we came from the same polytechnic. Hehe.. but my mother was saying so means I have no chance lah. But I told her I think they call me down for interview is because I can learn things fast. Anyway, I'm not quite sure if i will fare well anot but I think I can make it? Never mind lah~ This is an experience to learn >.<
If he doesn't call tonight I think I would want to end this and treat that there is nothing happen between us. It seems like he is better off with his NS friends now. I am happy that he had made a strong bonding with his new found friends >.<
That's all folks >.<

=>Life IS too PRofounD aNd CANNot Be SuM uP in MeRE WoRdS<==>Life IS too PRofounD aNd CANNot Be SuM uP in MeRE WoRdS<= @ 6:37 PM

Tuesday, April 27, 2004

I just got home not long ago. This morning there is a person from Masspower called but I was taking a shower I didn't know so he called me again and ask me to submit my MS format of my resume. Anayway, I went to NP today. I company my brother there and he went to do his lappy stuff while I went to my department to get my testimonial done. After I submit my application I went to SSO and see how's everybody doing. Niko was available as Mrs Tay is giving a briefing and Sally at SSIC. I'm glad that everybody is doing fine now =)
After me and my brother was done, I suggest to bring my mother to Orchard for a walk. Since she hardly take time off from work. So we went there and walk around, I finally found my birthday bear!!! Yeah! But it is the second edition, since Junwei can't remeber where he left the bear so I got myself one. Hehe.. so happy. Junwei no offence, ok?
After that we went to Ding Tai Feng and treat my mother an early Mothers' Day. I can see my mother enjoy it. Hehe.. So happy~ When we are done with the XiaoLongBao, we went to Marks & Spencer to get my body spray before we head home.
I find that my life is a bore >.<

=>Life IS too PRofounD aNd CANNot Be SuM uP in MeRE WoRdS<==>Life IS too PRofounD aNd CANNot Be SuM uP in MeRE WoRdS<= @ 7:24 PM

Finally, I went to book my basic theory test this afternoon. It was a very warm day, I walk there. The place is under renovation but it was lucky that they had direction to tell me where to book for my test. After I book my test, I went to Westmall for a walk and bought the new edition of the basic theory test and the big safety pins for my bag. I look at the time and it was almost time for my mother to knock off so I called her if she wants to meet up for dinner. As I walk to the MRT Station, I saw my Lecturer. He was with his cute little daughter and they were waiting for her wife to knock off. We chat a little and told me that I can go the ECE department to fill up an application if I need a referee and most probaly they will assign me my Project Supervisor(Mr Tan). So I guess I will make a trip down tomorrow.
As I was taking the train down to Clementi to meet my mother, I suddenly realise why did all the trash can in the MRT was taken away. It was because trash can is the best place to plant a bomb so they took it away so that nothing big will happen.
I met my mother at Clementi and we ate first then we bought food back for Ah Bui~. When I got home, I just sat there and watch TV. Suddenly at 1am, Caiying sms and told me that Crux is out and it is very clear so I went to take a look. It was so nice!!! I quickly went and took out my camare and took a few. I forgot I change my settings to take something else so I guess I wasted some of the negative. It has been so long since I last took any photos. I hope it turn out well =/ Thanks Caiying for telling me and I hope all the best in whatever you do >.<
Off to play GB >.<

=>Life IS too PRofounD aNd CANNot Be SuM uP in MeRE WoRdS<==>Life IS too PRofounD aNd CANNot Be SuM uP in MeRE WoRdS<= @ 1:35 AM

Sunday, April 25, 2004

Erm.. tonight I kinda have this wierd feeling but I don't know how to explain it. I don't know I find that I am too straight forward and hurt people unintentionally but sometimes I find that people hurt me too so why should I care when I hurt people. I don't know. In the past I am very happy go luck but ever since my Poly years ended I find that I see things very clearly and the road out there is not the road I have been walking.
Sometimes I tell myself not to bother what others says but I am very pissed and unhappy when people talk behind my back. I know that there are people who are not happy with me and talking behind my back. But some of my close friends says that I maybe thinking too much. Things are not as bad as I see. I don't know I just feel like isolating myself now. If nobody talk to me I will not talk to them so I would get a slap on my face. I think this is a better way. Therefore I won't offend people nor get into unneccssary problems.
STOP THINKING!! BRAIN CELLS DECREASING!!! >.<

=>Life IS too PRofounD aNd CANNot Be SuM uP in MeRE WoRdS<==>Life IS too PRofounD aNd CANNot Be SuM uP in MeRE WoRdS<= @ 10:47 PM

Love is like sand >.<
Sand can be fine and smooth which is smooth sailing..
When things is too smooth it is not good becuase you will bored as time goes by..
Sand can be coarse and rough which is rough path..
When things is too rough it is not good because you will feel tired as time goes by..
So it all depends on oneself if you want a exciting and fun love, add both sand together..
Do whatever you like >.<

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Saturday, April 24, 2004

I just shower~ What a day, I met Junwei and Kwong Bin today at Funan the IT Mall. We went there because Kwong Bin wants Cyndi Wong autograph.I can't believe my eyes when we got there. There were so many people queing for her autograph. I didn't know she was so popular. Junwei and I left Kwong Bin there to 'zhi she zhi mie' as he is far behind waiting and I need to get some stuff for my bag from Sports Connection. Not long after we turn our back on Kwong Bin, Koon Thye show up and they company to get my stuff. After that we loiter around the building to wait for Kwong Bin. Cyndi is so WHITE!! Ok lah, I mean VERY FAIR!!! And then Junwei was saying that her side view not so nice, her front view looks better. I think I agree in that and I think I really need to change my spectacles. When I see her she looks so fuzzy to me. My eye sight is failing me =(
We waited very long for Kwong Bin and Koon Thye can't wait anymore as today is his mother's birthday so he left first. So coincident that I met my secondary school classmate and I was really surprise to see him there as he is also queing up for her autograph. Hehe.. Finally, Kwong Bin was done and we went to Long John and eat and talk cok~ Junwei suggest to go Millenium Walk as he wants to look for a shop that can hand make soft toy bear and he wants to learn a new skill again. So we walk all the way down to Millenium Walk. When we got there, almost all the shop was close and we can't even find a gift shop or handicraft shop that do such things. So we guess that maybe this is not the place and he remember the wrong place. Actually it is so sweet of him as he wants to learn to make bear just to give people as pressie and until now he still can't find the birthday bear that he bought for me =( so sadz~ It was getting late so we hop onto the chartered bus and catch a bus at Raffles City.
Anyway, I want to thank them for spending their Saturday with me so that I won't feel lonely >.<

=>Life IS too PRofounD aNd CANNot Be SuM uP in MeRE WoRdS<==>Life IS too PRofounD aNd CANNot Be SuM uP in MeRE WoRdS<= @ 10:33 PM

Haiz.. That fellow remember that I am still alive living in Singapore. He sms me yesterday saying that he having his field camp in Taiwan. Anyway, I wanted to book driving today but it rain heavily and I was suppose to meet friends to go and take a look at a huanted place but he cannot make it because of the wedding dinner ending late =(
Actually, I went back to NPAC with Junwei today. The whole place change so much and I talk to them(the future Main Comm) I hope the talk helps them and let them have more confident and understand NPAC better =)
Tomorrow gonna meet Junwei and the rest of the gang. i wonder how Thye looks like now... Erm.. Hehe.. he must have become fitter and darker, just like Junwei today! He look like SK now.. Whahaha~ (no offence, ok?)
All the best to NPAC >,<

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Wednesday, April 21, 2004

It seems like it is going to rain tonight and I really hope it does =) I think I like being alone, free and doing things that I like. I don't have to care what other people thinks and need not think about how would others feel if I do something that I am not suppose to. I like the feeling about being single. Nobody to bother me, nobody to tell me to do things that I am not suppose to do. Anyway, I lost count the number of days that he is not around. Everything seems to be like a dream. I wonder if he exist anot. I guess he was part of my dream also. I think I have woke up from my dream and I should walk on without him.
Yeah!! I finally got a flamingo suit to earn money >.< SoOoooooOOo H@pPY!!!

=>Life IS too PRofounD aNd CANNot Be SuM uP in MeRE WoRdS<==>Life IS too PRofounD aNd CANNot Be SuM uP in MeRE WoRdS<= @ 7:22 PM

Tuesday, April 20, 2004

Yesterday, Suriati called to ask me out but I didn't go because I need to pack up my wardrobe. I cleared all my unwanted clothes and check if my old bags has anything inside. I found my 'Bread' pouch so happy and my disk box that can content 3 floppy disk. I thought I lost it =) I went for a work out after that and felt wierd, I puke =/ that is bad and my mother ask me to go and see a doctor because I am always not feeling well =(
After dinner I went online to check out GB, they got new avater!! I am so happy that they had added girl chief hat!! I think I am not going to sell my angel afterall because the chief hair can help me =)
This morning I woke up quite late again =( I must try to wake up early as not to waste my time and try to complete some of my stuff. My mother wants me to go oversea to study now =( I really don't know what she wants. I thought we had agree that if I can't get to local University I will work and study part time for advance diploma? And then my father ask me to work for the Air Force? I don't know.. How I wish Baby is here to discuss things with me >.<
Day 8.. Every problems is coming back again >.<

=>Life IS too PRofounD aNd CANNot Be SuM uP in MeRE WoRdS<==>Life IS too PRofounD aNd CANNot Be SuM uP in MeRE WoRdS<= @ 3:50 PM

Sunday, April 18, 2004

What a hot day! My mother made "liang cha" this morning and made all of us drink. So nice of her!! Finally he sms and said that he is back from the 4 days 3 nights training. he said he had fun and that is good =) Anyway, I got nothing much to say today as I didn't do anything wierd.
Day 6.. And it is bloody freaking hot!!! >.<

=>Life IS too PRofounD aNd CANNot Be SuM uP in MeRE WoRdS<==>Life IS too PRofounD aNd CANNot Be SuM uP in MeRE WoRdS<= @ 11:04 PM

Haiz.. Today I spent my day with Avon at Orchard. I thank him for spending the day with me. He company to the bookshop to get the comic issue 11, I was so blur to have bought issue 12 but not 11 that time so I went to get it this time and we walk around and sit down when his back hurts. After we find it boring we go home. Hehehe.. Cause we decide to play GB!! Hahaha.. I sat in front of the PC for 6 hours playing GB. Haiz.. but still not enough to buy new avater.
Day 5 today and my day was spend in this way without him >.<

=>Life IS too PRofounD aNd CANNot Be SuM uP in MeRE WoRdS<==>Life IS too PRofounD aNd CANNot Be SuM uP in MeRE WoRdS<= @ 12:54 AM

Saturday, April 17, 2004

O manz.. I can't enter the NTU acceptance webbie. I think I can't get into Local University. I tried entering using Baby's IC number and I can't get in too. If I can't get in, it is ok. I'm really worried that Baby cannot get in. I hope he can get in =( I feeling kinda lost as I need some advise from him and I had some discission that I had made that I want to discuss with him =/ I want to talk to him so much.. I miss him. This seems to be worst then when he was in UK as least we get to chat online but we can't now as he is having training in the jungle. It is 4 days 3 nights.
Waiting patiently.. >.<

=>Life IS too PRofounD aNd CANNot Be SuM uP in MeRE WoRdS<==>Life IS too PRofounD aNd CANNot Be SuM uP in MeRE WoRdS<= @ 1:40 PM

Friday, April 16, 2004

I guess this is it, my last day here. It's time to end everything and start life anew. I wanted to sms Baby and tell him about it but he is having his 4 days 3 nights training in the Taiwan jungle. Today is day 4, I wonder how is he getting on.
Yesterday AMI was not bad. John Steven perform quite well and it is even better then the last 2 weeks. I hope everyone of them gets better each time they go on the stage. I wonder who will be the host and judges for SGI.
I want to talk to Baby so muchie >.<

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Thursday, April 15, 2004

Hehe.. Today is day 3, he sms me in the morning telling me that he misses me =) I miss him too. Yesterday there was no AMI because the president is addressing USA, so tonight there will be AMI. I will try to catch The OC tonight also as I miss it last week because I was busy playing GB. I don't know why but suddenly I felt abit uncertain on how long I can stay here to work. I hope I can stay till next week, but I can't be greedy right?
Haiz.. Don't know lah~ so messy >.<

=>Life IS too PRofounD aNd CANNot Be SuM uP in MeRE WoRdS<==>Life IS too PRofounD aNd CANNot Be SuM uP in MeRE WoRdS<= @ 2:00 PM

Wednesday, April 14, 2004

Erm.. So weird~ I just realise that I had a miss call yesterday but I have no idea about it. If that person sees this blog please let me know who are you or please call me again =/
Today is day 2 that he is not around =/ Yesterday, he was nice to use his friend handphone to sms me to let me know that everything is going on well there except that he misses me. I miss him too.. =.( Sobz sobZ~ Anyway, his first field camp training there starts today. I hope he won't lost his way in the forest =/ Don't think he is so blur, right?
Haiz.. If there is anybody "peeping" at my blog.. please let me know by posting something at the skychat because it seems to be lonely. Just like me right now >.< thanx!

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Tuesday, April 13, 2004

Today is the first day that Baby is not around. I am feeling kinda weird because it is not like him as not to send me sms. I can't say I feel lost because he told me this, "Whenever you are thinking what am I doing, just make sure that you know that I am thinking of you." I find that it is kinda sweet and touching when he said that.
I think I will stop working at my mother's place by end of this week as I find that there is nothing much that I can do now other then issueing the cheques. I really do hope I can stay longer but I don't really wish people talking behind my mother's back saying that she is abusing her authority.
I think I will have to plan on where and how to I head now >.<
Pending mail from NTU....

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Monday, April 12, 2004

Erm... today is the day. The day that he is leaving. His flight is at 2:30am later. I can't send him off as it is too late and the next day I had to work. I guess it is good also then I won't have to be so sad when he goes in. I really thank him for spending so much time with me those few days. And thanks for buying me the bag that I always wanted and buying the water bottle so that I have no excuses and must drink lotsa water.
Don't worry I will be fine! Baby please take good care of yourself. >.<

=>Life IS too PRofounD aNd CANNot Be SuM uP in MeRE WoRdS<==>Life IS too PRofounD aNd CANNot Be SuM uP in MeRE WoRdS<= @ 1:35 PM

Saturday, April 10, 2004

What a weekend! Yesterday I woke up and go to 3 places to sweep the tombs. The first one is at the temple where my grandfather's urn was placed. After that we made our way down to Mount Vernon where my Uncle was placed. I still feel kinda sad when I see my Uncle as I never do well to bring the family proud. He has confident in me but I have always let him down. Anyway, I think I must not despair because he don't want me to be a weakingling too. But I am really proud with Yen as she has really done the family proud by doing well in her studies and respect people. I am proud and glad that I had a cousin like her! I hope that she will be healthy and well as I know that being in a good school is not easy =) Lastly, we went to Depot Road where my grandfather tablet is placed. I think and I hope this will be the last time to go 3 places as my family thinks of putting my grandfather urn with his tablet therefore we dont have to go here and there so troublesome.
After everything we went to eat and send my granny back home. On the way I ask my dad to drop me off at the nearest MRT as Baby has bought tickets for Hellboy. It was a nice show, to me I find that it is something like X-Men but they uses the history and mythology to create a story line. I was very surprise that he bought me the water bottle last week but did not tell me =) I am glad to have him in my life.
Today we met in the morning, we had branch and then went to Bugis to take picture and walk around there and after that he company me to sports connection to look at bags. Finally I decide to get the bag but he insist to pay for me as he won't be around for about 3 weeks so he wants to spend it on me =) Thank You Baby! After we got the bag I went to Kwong Bin's house for house warming. SK and I brave the rain just to go to his house and my bag was very very wet and XiaoMao got wet too =( Now XiaoMao is in front of the window trying to dry itself.
1 more day to see him and he will fly off~ =.(

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Thursday, April 08, 2004

Erm.. I guess I have to talk even lesser now. I think whenever I speak or talk I seldom think about how would the other fellow feels and blunt it out and I actually indirectly hurt that fellow feelings. Tsk tsk.. how inconsiderate of me =/
Anyway tomorrow is Good Friday and I hope I will learn to be better each day.
Talk less and observe more >.<

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Wednesday, April 07, 2004

Time really passes by fast, in a blink of eye it is already Wednesday and in about 5 to 6 days more, Baby is flying to Taiwan for training. How I wish I don’t have to work tomorrow so that I can spend more time with him till he go Taiwan.
My coming weekend will be kinda busy, Friday I have to sweep the tombs and Saturday I going out with Baby, meeting him for breakfast and spend time together and later in the evening I’m going to Kwong Bin’s house for housewarming. Sunday will be the last day to spend time with him before he fly off for training.
I hope time will pass faster when he is not around so that we can be together again >.<

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Tuesday, April 06, 2004

I got my angel last weekend. Its not as good as it seems. Anyway, I'm gonna save up to get the money suit. I hope it will help me earn lotsa of MONEY!!!!
Whahaha.. >.<

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Friday, April 02, 2004

She sms me and ask me if I'm in school or at home. I told her I'm at work. I find it weird as how much she knows about me. It's zero. She was very surprise and ask me where it is and work as what. I told her it is a part time job at west side. So she reply back that is good and she just quit. Erm.. Any suggestion to reply back what?
I don't feel like replying her. I just find that she need friends and company and then look for me. I find that she has change so much. Maybe she was like this in the past but just that I didn't realise it. I still cannot forget that incident when I try to keep in contact with her but she push me away.
Few months ago on one weekdays, she said that maybe will able to meet up with me together with her boyfriend. I thought she was busy so I waited patiently for her answer until that Saturaday(the day that we arrange to meet up) I sms her. Guess what was her reply? She said that she is going Orchard to meet her friend and she is going to be late. Can your imagine that kind of feeling? She didn't even have the courteousy to sms and inform me about it first. And then comes another sms and she ask if I wanna join them. Was she really so busy as to forget to reply me and follow up about the arrangement? I really don't know. But honestly speaking, I'm really disappointed of her. And I think she would learnt more about her time management rather then keep saying that she has lost most of her friends because she is too busy.
I think that is why nowsaday I only arrange to meet up with those in contact and those who would really wants to keep in contact with me >.< Because I don't wish to be push away again.

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Thursday, April 01, 2004

Hmz... I suddenly felt very low mood. I know why but I think I am in the wrong so I can't push the blame to anyone. I think I have to try and learn harder on how to manage it and not to take it so seriously. If somebody is reading this, I hope your won't misunderstand and thinks that I'm low mood because of Baby as it is not his work of it. I guess it is true I must be happy first before I can make myself more happier. I must do it! I must take things easy and rationally and not trust people so easily therefore I can be happier this way >.<
Anyway, I guess this is how I see things.. It is always so dark and negative =(

=>Life IS too PRofounD aNd CANNot Be SuM uP in MeRE WoRdS<==>Life IS too PRofounD aNd CANNot Be SuM uP in MeRE WoRdS<= @ 4:05 PM

WooHoo~ Baby said that he may be able to come out for a couple of hours later. I hope it is true, therefore I can meet him >.<
I miss him~ hehehe =D

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