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Wednesday, March 31, 2004

O m@nZz~ I think this is what I call retribution. I got what I deserve by deserting Suriati because of the KTV. I can't go to the KTV now as Lat Kuan has to pay her school fees by today and her school is at Aljunied area and since Lat Kuan is not going, Debbie is not going too and if my Christine is not sick and her friend is not sick I don't mind going to the KTV with the both of them but I don't want to end up being the only one singing so no choice but to cancel all program. I feel so bad towards Suriati now >.<
Anyway, what done is done so it cannot be undone...

=>Life IS too PRofounD aNd CANNot Be SuM uP in MeRE WoRdS<==>Life IS too PRofounD aNd CANNot Be SuM uP in MeRE WoRdS<= @ 3:35 PM

Hey Hey~ I am going to KTV after work. I felt abit bad that I can't meet up with Suriati to work out with her but then Debbie has a discount voucher and today is the last day so no choice =( I hope Suriati will understand >.<
I think I can control myself into prompting into people's affair. I keep telling myself that I am just only a friend to them so it makes no difference as I know it anot. I felt much happier in this way. I have alot of things to bother with, so I should be more concern with my own stuff rather then other people's stuff. I think I must book a time with my Butt to go fishing with him before the both of us forget.
I can't wait to go fishing again~ >.<

=>Life IS too PRofounD aNd CANNot Be SuM uP in MeRE WoRdS<==>Life IS too PRofounD aNd CANNot Be SuM uP in MeRE WoRdS<= @ 12:22 PM

Sunday, March 28, 2004

Today, I really enjoy my weekend and this is one of the best weekend that I had ever spend with Baby. Today is even better then Valentines' Day. We met in the afternoon and Baby company me to the temple to pray and after we went round Bugis walking and looking around. It is kinda tired but I think its worthwhile as we really talk and it helps us to understand each other better and after we were bored with Bugis. We went to Lau Pat Sat for stingray. I like to see him enjoying the stingray. I can see that he really enjoy the stingray as the flesh is thicker and he even commented that it is better then the previous time that we went to eat. I am happy so long he is happy and after that we bought beer and walk down the Clake Quay and towards the Esplanade. Along the way, we chatted and laughed alot. I am really very happy today >.<
To my Baby,
Thanks for bringing so much joy to me. I really enjoy your company and hope to spend all my weekends with you.

=>Life IS too PRofounD aNd CANNot Be SuM uP in MeRE WoRdS<==>Life IS too PRofounD aNd CANNot Be SuM uP in MeRE WoRdS<= @ 12:50 AM

Saturday, March 27, 2004

Wah!! It is 2:45am. I'm still awake. Haiz.. I still need 40000 more gold to get my angel~ So sad.. Anyway, I had a nice time with Debbie today. We talk alot, she company me to change the cable but end up my old PC too old as the internet card hole is small maybe I haf to get an adapter. After the Aijisen Ramen, she company me to get a pressie for Yanru. I'm glad to know her, she is funny and I really do hope to be able to stay in contact with her. She is really a nice friend that really know how to appreaciate people and she gave me a new nick "小大人" I think maybe because I talk too much? Hehe.. >.< she may have problems but I can see that she is trying her best to take things easy and I hope she will be happy one day.
OK!! I got to go dreamland as Baby is searching for me.. I hope I can find him in there >.< Nitez to all my friends and sweet dreams to all that are snoring now!~!~!~!~!~

=>Life IS too PRofounD aNd CANNot Be SuM uP in MeRE WoRdS<==>Life IS too PRofounD aNd CANNot Be SuM uP in MeRE WoRdS<= @ 2:44 AM

Friday, March 26, 2004

I suddenly felt that life is so wierd and full of surprises. People that I lost contact with suddenly all appear without knowingly. Anyway, I think I better stop thinking about the past on how people treated me and who are exactly are my close or best friends as all are the same no difference then I maybe able to live happier? Like what Peihui says.. Look at the future and choose things wisely and think who are more worthwhile rather then think of the past so waste of time... whaha..
To my Lao Jie,
I'm truly glad and touch that you make a point to read my entry here. Thanx for remembering me >.<

=>Life IS too PRofounD aNd CANNot Be SuM uP in MeRE WoRdS<==>Life IS too PRofounD aNd CANNot Be SuM uP in MeRE WoRdS<= @ 3:14 PM

Wednesday, March 24, 2004

O manZ~ Yesterday I went for the health screening, it was bad! The average fat percentage is between 20%-24% and then I'm at 30% how bad can it be manz~ As for my colestrole the average is between 120-200 and then I am at 200. THAT IS SOOOOoooOOOOoo BAD!!!
Anyway, I had made arrangement with Suriati last week to meet up today to get things worked out and look better. I hope the gym will help >.<

=>Life IS too PRofounD aNd CANNot Be SuM uP in MeRE WoRdS<==>Life IS too PRofounD aNd CANNot Be SuM uP in MeRE WoRdS<= @ 3:39 PM

Sunday, March 21, 2004

WooHoo~ So scary and meaningful movie that I watch yesterday. The Eye 2 was base on a pregnant woman that can see things after she attempted sucide but failed. People that likes to think and inference stuff should watch this movie.
Actually in this world everything is base on Kharma, there is reasons why you are born in this family and why your brother is him and why you are with this guy and so much more.. But at one point its best not to find out all this is happening as this is a secret or past so it is not a good idea to rack up the past as sometimes the truth is not what we want to know because the truth is always cruel.
So if one day if you happen to find a very good friend and that is helping you up all the time maybe it is because you help him up all the time in your previous life >.<

=>Life IS too PRofounD aNd CANNot Be SuM uP in MeRE WoRdS<==>Life IS too PRofounD aNd CANNot Be SuM uP in MeRE WoRdS<= @ 12:10 PM

Friday, March 19, 2004

I'm kinda piss right now. If I knew my father didn't call his friend to help me find out more information on the University in Australia I would have find it out using my own source. I'mpiss in the sense that ai thought I can trust him that he would help me as I am his daughter but I'm disappointed, that he is not reliable at all. The past few days I didn't even have the time to sit down and do my own stuff. Now I have to do it all last minute.
I learnt something, never to trust anyone even if they are your kins. I have to do everything by myself.

=>Life IS too PRofounD aNd CANNot Be SuM uP in MeRE WoRdS<==>Life IS too PRofounD aNd CANNot Be SuM uP in MeRE WoRdS<= @ 10:03 PM

Haha.. I don't know if your had heard the news about the 3 robbers that went to Tekong island to hide. I was thinking of all places why would they choose such a place. Now the Island is full of green and blue people. The funniest part is that today Baby is guarding the StoreRoom for all the Guns and Grenade. I hope he would be fine =/
Actually sometimes I look back and think, I am not really that alone nor friendless and I don't think I didn't do well as a friend. I am glad that when I made in effort to keep in touch with my friends and they are willing to stay by my side and still hang out or talk to me on the phone or online when we see each other. I really appreciate all my friends that still care and concern for me regardless how long we never talk. I think so far I manage to manage my time well, with family, love, friends, studies and work I think I am quite contented with it because I made an effort? Hehehe..
Anyway, to all my friends that wish me happy birthday that day and those that still in contact with me, thanks for remembering me as I will always remember your as your had made my life wonderful >.<

=>Life IS too PRofounD aNd CANNot Be SuM uP in MeRE WoRdS<==>Life IS too PRofounD aNd CANNot Be SuM uP in MeRE WoRdS<= @ 11:10 AM

Thursday, March 18, 2004

It has been more then a week since I last blog. How am I suppose to express myself. Erm.. Last Saturaday, I was quite piss with Baby because we didn't get to spend much time together as he book out late. He said that the latest would be 5pm but we end up watching the second part of the show =( he book out at 7plus. I nearly cried( I think I did? Don't know lah..) but I didn't I find myself childish that day. Anyway, things are better now >.<
Monday and Tuesday I tried to went for a jog. Even my mother said that I am fat now =( So sad~ I felt good that I felt for a jog because I like the perspiring feeling =D Hehehe.. Yesterday I didn't go as my thighs were sore but I must make it point to go today.
Now I am thinking as where can I head if I can't get into local University. I have to plan but I feel that I am really lost. I really pin all my hope onto getting into local University.
To whoever is watching over or looking after me up there,
Please give me a chance and confident that I can get into a NTU or NUS. I don't ask for much but I hope that your would help me and grant me my wish.
Thank you >.< I will really be grateful and treasure it if your can help.

=>Life IS too PRofounD aNd CANNot Be SuM uP in MeRE WoRdS<==>Life IS too PRofounD aNd CANNot Be SuM uP in MeRE WoRdS<= @ 1:19 PM

Monday, March 08, 2004

I have been thinking alot again. I find that life is very complicated. You never know who are your real friends and who are the one that always makes use of you.
Sometimes people look for you is because they need your help but you will also misunderstand that they are making use of you, so how sure can we be to distinguish who are your real friends?
I have a very horrible character, I think too much and always think of the negative side and hope to be treated well if I treat them well.
Sometimes I think back, those people that I regards them as my good friends and close friends, actually, they don't understand me at all. They don't know what I like and how my life is going on. They only know that I'm childish and needs attention. I think I know my purpose in life is for them to depend on me when they can't find their own good friends and best friends. I tried to keep in contact with those that I consider them as friends. I think after the incident when I was 17, the word good, close or best friend can never exist in my life anymore. To me now, everybody is my friend but only a few that I still talk to are consider as my friends that cares for me and I truly appreciate them that they still think and remember me.
I manage to change abit of my character as not to throw my temper so much and care so much for NPAC. I think I must start to cultivate a better character as not to probe into people's affair and not to think so much >.<

=>Life IS too PRofounD aNd CANNot Be SuM uP in MeRE WoRdS<==>Life IS too PRofounD aNd CANNot Be SuM uP in MeRE WoRdS<= @ 1:44 PM

Friday, March 05, 2004

I'm at the office now. I was surfing the net when I was tired and try to find out more about the enrolment to local University. I really do hope that I can enrole into the local University therefore I can save alot of trouble. I'm glad that Caiying was happy with her result but as for Yanru I hope she won't lose her confidence again and wish that the both of them can get into the courses that they like.
Just now my mother had a few interview to find her new girl, she was impressed with this girl but she rejected my mother offer. Kinda sad right? After so many people came for the interview my mother found one that she like but this girl rejected her. Haiz~
I tried to persuade people to buy the Beauty and the Beast tickets but nobody is willing to buy as it is too expensive. BUT!! Gek Wah says if I got 3 tickets she will buy from me and give it to her sister-in-law as she can bring her son and duaghter. I hope that there are available seats beside the 2 seats that I bought so that I can sell it to her >.<
If there isn't any tickets then too bad, there is nothing I can do. What to do... Baby is not free =(

=>Life IS too PRofounD aNd CANNot Be SuM uP in MeRE WoRdS<==>Life IS too PRofounD aNd CANNot Be SuM uP in MeRE WoRdS<= @ 7:37 PM

Wednesday, March 03, 2004

I just got home. I leave my mother in the office =( All because of that stupid horsey~ He said he is not watching the movie as they are late and then Hanyuan and him will like to meet me for dinner so I left my mother in the office and then ran after a bus. The sad thing is that he sms me and say the dinner is cancel because they are actually in time for the movie. THEY SAW THE WRONG TIMING!!!(7:30pm = 6:30pm)
Anyway, I'm not that pissed as he own me a dinner. Hehehe.. >.<

=>Life IS too PRofounD aNd CANNot Be SuM uP in MeRE WoRdS<==>Life IS too PRofounD aNd CANNot Be SuM uP in MeRE WoRdS<= @ 8:16 PM