My boss is not here yet. I don't know why but I am afraid of voicing my feeings in the blogs now as I think alot of people is seeing. They know how I feel and then they will try to avoid me and stuff like that.
But then if I don't voice it here, there is nobody to turn to. Because I know I am a nuisance and then I always think of negative stuff. I don't wish to bother them with what I think also becuase they will find it irritating. I know my fault but then I won't change for the better but only know how to whine~. No good.. no good..
Maybe Caiying is right, do what you think is right coz this is my life I cannot let others ruin it. I am doing my best to patch things up but if they still have the stone in their heart, I am sorry that I spoil their mood previously and I hope they can try to accept the me again. I must not be affected by how they think of me and how they treat me now.
I want to sleep >.<